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Thursday, March 3, 2016

merapu jap

Salam..

pagi tadi dalam jam 4 lebih aku terjaga, tiba2 rasa kepala berpusing2..pejam mata pun rasa berpusing2..terus bangun rasa nak muntah...lama juga la rasa macam tu...tak daya sangat..nak panggil hubby pun suara tak mampu nak keluar...muntah air je..pening tu jangan cakap la..rasa nak tumbang je bila berdiri...pastu gagahkan diri capai phone call papa...tanya nak makan ubat apa..tak sempat makan terus rasa nak muntah lagi..last2 bertepek je kat toilet bowl tu...serius rasa nak mati dah time tu...terus nangis teringat dosa2 lalu... (T_T)

orang pertama terbayang.....anak2...terus fikir ape la nasib anak2 aku kalau aku dah takde..sape nak handle zhariff...sape nak layan perangai diaorang berdua ni...pastu teringat hubby...sedih tak dia kalau aku dah takde?? mampu ke dia jaga & besarkan anak2 kitaorang..dia kahwin lain x? kah!! sempat ok pikir tang tu...terus nangis teresak2...nangis sebab sakit tak tahan plus sebab fikir yang bukan2...sob3x...

rasa ada la dalam 15 minit dok tersandar kat toilet bowl tu...selang seli ngan uwek2...nangis2 sendu...hubby tidur mati..tak dengar langsung bini sakit...hohoho....pas makan ubat..rasa better sket..terus gi sambung baring sebelah anak2...

pagi ni gagahkan diri pergi kerja..sampai la ni rasa dizzy je...serius tak tau sakit ape plak nak datang kali ni...ikut hati nak MC je...tapi kenangkan kerja yang banyak...tengah closing lagi...dengan history last year yang banyak MC...terus gagahkan diri...fuhhh~~ 

erm....now bila fikir2 balik..tuhan nak tarik nikmat hidup tu bila2 je..rasa insaf sangat...rasa ni pengajaran supaya lebih banyak bersabar dengan dugaan hidup...tuhan bagi peluang masih bernafas...so aku kene la hargai sebaik mungkin...



maafkan hney, bie.................

1 comment:

  1. Jaga kesihatan ye. Maklumla cuaca panas sangat skrg ni. Take care.

    Hadiahkan al fatihah buat anak2 dan suami.

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